WANLIN

2012-02-01T01:25:00.001+08:00

i love them.

and it is all that matters.

for i know they will always be there for me.

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take care and i wish you all the best :)

2011-07-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

not on purpose, just by chance.
what was i even thinking??
shld never have assumed you to be the same as me.
i hope you are truly happy.
--
it used to be hard to care, but now, even harder to pretend not to care.

you may/maynot be reading this but i hope you will keep this in your heart:
don't go around breaking hearts of people that truly cares for you.
don't play with fire. please.

i no longer know if you are being truthful when we text.
cos for all i know, im just someone you are 'playing' with.

not saying anything doesnt mean not caring, not bothering.

it is only through this space that i truly can type out how i feel.
even in texts, i can never express these out cos it feels so real like talking to you.

so, yes this is the extent which i keep things to myself.

im just letting you know.
and if you know/understand, im really happy.

2011-06-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

my new phobia.
loneliness.
it's like how ppl describe deafening silence.
you want it, but you hate it as much.
life's ironies.

2011-05-30T18:10:00.000+08:00

best friends quarrel every now and then.
nothing can change the fact that you are my best friend.
--
but if this friendship meant nothing to you or its so fragile that a quarrel can break it.
whatever then.

2011-04-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

feeling sooo bad now.

sorry.

feel like digging a hole right now and burying myself in it forever. 

embarrassed.

2011-04-21T21:21:00.001+08:00

anyone to give me a surprise now???

hug me to sleep. waking up in the arms of someone i love.

breakfast in bed.

small getaway trip to bintan/batam/phuket (anywhere with sun, sand and water)

just 2 of us.

walking in the beach at night, candlelight dinner, gazing at the stars.

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wishing there is someone like this who is there for me right now.

that would be the best way to spend this long weekend. i wish.

2011-04-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

im trying to get used to being this.

 single.

afterall, its been close to 3 yrs.

feels new, yet weirdly familiar at the same time...

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love them so much. +my qt pie missing in the pic.

if not for them, i'll never have literally survived till now.

*blows 10000000 kisses

2011-03-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

So many things have happened this wk.
Had a fall. hurt my head
Stitches. cut a lil of my hair
Bruises all over my body

Sorry I got to push you away
But for our own good guess.
Not just you. but everyone else.
im just not good enough for anyone.

2011-03-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

it never was your fault i guess.

i couldn't accept this new you.

or should i say, the change in you.

im not ready to / dont want to. and it scares me waayy too much.

the thought of having to love this new you.

its too much of a risk to take.

i dont want to take this risk.

and im never a risk taker or never will.

my insecurity gets the worse of me.

the friends you are recently with, doesnt exactly spell good influence.

im too scared of all these little things. that i tear everytime i think of it.

trust takes years to build, and seconds to destroy.

im closing my heart here. to you. to anyone.

cause i am too afraid to get my heart shattered again.

2011-02-21T14:42:00.001+08:00

you trampled on my last pride left.

and it hurts because i love you.

not that it matters anymore.

2011-02-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

i have gotten ready for you.
only to be canceled on. again.
no apologies on your part.
so my fault again?

so this is where we have come to.
im tired of being the one waiting for you.
maybe you wont ever know this, or how i feel
cause you were never the one being treated this way.

everything just have to happen before my exams again.
why are you treating me this way?
im so sick of all this.
for once, cant you treat me the way i want to be treated?
or i am nothing to you?
i guess i had my answer from your actions.

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2011-02-15T22:48:00.001+08:00

Untitled by wwanlin featuring hermes jewelry

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2011-02-13T18:19:00.001+08:00

Untitled by wwanlin featuring jersey tees

2011-02-12T21:18:00.002+08:00

when the day comes, i know i am bound to be sad.
right now, i just want to spend the rest of the time with you
creating the best of these memories for us.

2011-02-04T00:58:00.001+08:00

thought alot abt what mom has been saying to me

perhaps she is right?

i feel so lonely, so so lonely right now

maybe i just dont deserve anyone better.

and reason im writing here, is because i know no one would read this.

2011-02-02T11:34:00.002+08:00

what is this?!
i actually miss you.

2011-01-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

dont know if its my over-sensitivity,

but i feel so lonely out of a sudden.

so lonely that it scares me.

2011-01-02T23:27:00.001+08:00

im not the 'normal' kind of girl.
im the kind who needs showers of love and concern.
someone who truly cares about me, and my feelings.
who loves me exactly the way i wished to be loved.
this time, i wont ever let myself fall in pieces like how i did.

2010-12-12T17:00:00.001+08:00

i need someone who truly cares about me, to lend me a shoulder now.
enough is enough.

2010-05-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

sun night spent at chevrons.
felicia's 18th birthday^^
was pretty awkward at first cause i didnt really know of anyone there.
but met my other childhood best friend, Adeline there! :)
its been so longg since we last met each other.
caught up with each other. intro-ed our bf to each other.
took pics w the birthday girl too!

ahhh~ adeline, if you are looking at this:
we totally forgot to took pic with felicia tgt!
plus more of us tgt! :<

depressing, bt ohwell. there is still a next time!
but still had a good time!

AND AND AND

A HUGE THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU TO MY BOY!
I LOVE YOUUU SO MUCH! <3
thank you sooo sooo sooo much for the present that you bought for me.
i love it to bits!

2010-04-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

finally quitted my job^^

shall really relax and chill next week:)

GEMS to choose and hopefully i get into the same class as nat~

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i know i shouldnt be thinking of such thing at this point of time.

surprise!!

2010-03-29T00:56:00.000+08:00

ages since i updated.

its been pretty busy lately.

job, catching up with my babies, and enjoying my moment with my boy.

loads happened to people around me and to me lately.

and i need time to adjust.

meanwhile, this things/people are the ones which kept me happy:)

isnt she the cutest on earth??

love times like this^^

and oh i simply loveee buying random things like that:

& currently am loving my diary that i just bought!!!

**shall make it a point to write my thought n feelings every night

n im weird i guess to think of such things.

2010-03-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

thanks nat n renee who cared for me these few days:)
nat esp who came to find me today.
i really needed that.

desvastated. truely.
you are all that i need.
yet. you are nt there when i needed you the most

LOVE, SAVE THE EMPTY

2010-03-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

under tremendous stress recently.
sometimes i wish you really could understand how im feeling exactly.
my exams are like probably screwed.
3 mar is nearing.
sometimes, im really tired too.
but im still here.

i wish i can ask someone
why i have to face problem that others dont?
life's unfair.
face it. in your head.

tic tok

2010-02-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish i didnt know so much.

and

im really scared telling that and turning it into sympathy.

wishes time can re-wind.

2010-01-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

super true.

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Thanks dear nat for accompanying me these few days.

Thanks for letting my hopes down.

Now it's your call

2010-01-24T01:46:00.001+08:00

Don't like to use tht as a sympathy. I have enough to worry abt. Not all things have to be spelt out loud. Its for me to know n perhaps for anyone who cares or is concern to note. Maybe it's time for a change.

Time for me to chill n take control of it. Cause no one knows how much it has turned me into. No one.

TEN THINGS A GIRL MUST POSESS

2010-01-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

TEN THINGS THAT A GIRL MUST POSESS

peacelovechanel:

plushluxechanel:
These are the ten things that must be in every girl’s closet!

1) Plain white tank- great for layering or wearing under a jacket or vest. A loose fit is the most flattering. Also, sheer ones are nice because you can wear cute bandeaus underneath! Pockets are also always cute!

2) Classic bag- ladies, invest in a well made designer bag, the thing will last you a life time! I plan on keeping my Chanel 2.55 and Louis Vuitton Classic Monogram Speedy 30 forever! Other great classic bags are the Birkin Hermes bag (if you have the 9,000 for it tehe), Gucci Joy bag, and a Balenciaga City bag.

3) Plain black flats- you can wear these with EVERYTHING

4) Black skinny pants- great to wear with heels, flats, and boots. Leggings are my faves! Forever 21 has the best ones for FIVE dollars! Also, Hudson Jeans make the best black jeans.

5) Black blazer- YOU NEED ONE. End of story:)

6) Pink nail polish- a flattering color on every one. Shorts Story is my signature color.

7) Fur Jacket- real or fake, these things come in and out of style as often as Heidi Montag gets plastic surgery; a lot!

8) Little black dress- choose a classic one like this. Just because a dress is short and black does not mean it’s an LBD. LBS’s are elegant, chic, and timeless. Think of my idol Miss Holly Golightly:)

9) Black tee- wear with jeans, a pair of heels, kick ass bag, and stunning necklace for the total effortless chic look.

10) Black sunglasses- aviators look good on almost everyone!

2010-01-21T20:43:00.003+08:00

No matter how ugly you think you are, that special person that loves you believes you are the most beautiful and irresistible thing on earth and nothing can ever change that.

2010-01-19T10:36:00.001+08:00

Can't afford to be emotional abt anything anymore.. I have enough to deal w now. I want to be normal like eveybody.

2010-01-17T20:17:00.001+08:00

many thanks.

2010-01-17T12:24:00.000+08:00

so many thanks to say out.

but i deleted it all.

coz i guess im too afraid that happiness for me is short-lived.

experienced it too many times to want to have them dashed agn.

but still thanks to you guys.

2010-01-08T23:11:00.001+08:00

Love is when you can’t pay attention in class because you are forever writing your first name with his last. http://sharonstfu.tumblr.com/post/320081966/love-is-when-you-cant-pay-attention-in-class-because

The start

2010-01-08T00:48:00.000+08:00

Been pretty busy w sch work lately. Nt that I'm particularly hardworking or sthg. Haa bt lifes seems pretty much the same..nt saying that it's a bad thing tho :) I'll rather have a life that's plain n mundane to one that is filled w ups n downs! Had enuff to stArt w for tis yr. Weekend is going to be busyyy.. Esp sat. Audry's bday! :> shall blog till I have more to rant! Xx

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2010-01-02T22:53:00.003+08:00

You talk to me and I remember how every word lingered on your lips for hours. I close my eyes and try to remember the way you felt next to me days after you've gone. And somehow I know that years from now, thoughts of you will still keep me awake at night.

1st post of 2010.

2010-01-01T16:09:00.000+08:00

back from bkk trip.
too many things that made this trip from good to bad to good blah blah.
had a good/bad 'surprise'.
its hard for me. for everyone else too.
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hope my gifts brought smiles to you guys.
n have a great yr ahead. xoxo.

p.s new yr resolution: happiness n health to everyone around me.xx

2009-12-23T01:00:00.002+08:00

out in town today.
had a funn day.
HAPPY 19TH BABYLOVE! ♥
he is leaving for taiwan on thurs! :<
boooo.. i will miss him much much!
i'll be leaving for bkk the day aft...
THAILAND HERE I COME.

image issues...
there are soooo many other really pretty n beautiful ppl out there.

2009-12-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

i misss..... being like this: so carefreee:)

ironic that we used to wish that we could grow up quickly.
like playing dress ups w mum's clothes.
only to grow up to more troubles.

christmas09 isnt going to be memorable or anything to look forward to.
not even the trip overseas. i CANT wait for it to be over actually.

really hope that 2010 will be a better yr. i wish..

2009-12-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

past few days were hell.

things might be different after all...

exams are over~

2009-12-04T19:16:00.002+08:00

“no one ever said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard.

— coldplay, u know.

theme by parti

stress. MSTs are coming like again

this time, im so not prepared:(

okay, im always not prepared.

hai. i want my grades.

i cant seem to concentrate

and be motivated enough to study.

but im gonna try. still.

♥ baby's ipod!

online was nvr that shiok:/ 

anw, life's always a bliss w him arnd! :DDDDDDD

2009-11-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish im clever.
so that i can solve all the questions in the world,
solve all the difficulties.
sense of helplessness when i see him down!
i wish i can help

2009-11-25T11:51:00.006+08:00

grr. i have so much to do.

Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you’re hard-headed. If you’re quiet, you don’t care. If you call him, you’re too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.
If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don’t fuck him, you’re a tease. If you do, you’re easy. You tell him your problems, he says you’re irritating. If you don’t, he says you don’t trust him. If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it’s because he ‘cares.’ If you break a promise, he doesn’t trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it’s because he had to.
If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. Guys drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor; when girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can’t forgive; girls can forgive, but can’t forget.
When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl; when girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love; girls wish to be his last.

found it on a blog. haha not really true in some tho:/

2009-11-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

eyes sore.
i need a breather.

2009-11-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

life's busy n boring at the same time yet.

everyday seems to be on a repeat mode for me.

aint better to that i fell sick too.

there are so many things that i want to do so badly.

taking nice photos/going out w my friends (whom we can hardly find a time to:< )/ have some real fun

but exams are like coming again. ugrrh.

kill me. the first test results that i gt back are still haunting me till now.

2009-11-01T16:42:00.002+08:00

looked n stared at the SPSS book for like ages.
nothing seemed to go into my pea size brain.
whats this?

woke from a bad dream.
messed up all the way.
not that the fact that im trying to do sthg abt it helps.
screwed.

2009-10-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

been in love w masuaquades n all.

so nice so pretty. these masks.

pretty or not. fake or real.

theres a mask within everyone.

BURNT.ROASTED,

2009-10-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa for tanning ytd

w that bikini bought the day before.

ah pu neh neh everywhere:X

cant stand it. didnt know they go sentosa too:(

was burnt n roasted like a pig.

body was superrrrr red. i meant red!

SHOPPING SPREE

2009-10-17T01:00:00.001+08:00

absolutely insane!

went to shop n shop n shop.

he bought a cheapmonday jeans (madly nice), n tee.

whereas i spent money like water:( hai.

bought my vans aft like years.

bikini! (yay. but no yay)

hmm. n shirt.

adding up to almost close to 1xx??! his too! so $3xx all tgt? omg. insane insane insane.

loots for the day! his n mine! n dont look at my ugly face, i look like eww:(

TO THINK THAT I STILL WANT TO SAVE UP FOR THIS? N GET A COACH WRISTLET?

(both adding up to $9xx.. faints) i must scrimp n save every cent from now on!! gogogogogo.

kill me now!

isnt this gorgeous? **drools all over** haiii.

speaking of the bikini i bought, top was nice tho. bottom? :(

I LOOK LIKE A PIECE OF LARD. I DONT EVEN DARE TO TAKE OFF MY SHORTS.

HAIII.

needs to go exercise! like URGENT. i need to look fit! need to look mad skinny!

MAJOR HELP!

shall turn in w all my fats naoow.

2009-10-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes words can be used to express what you feel aptly.
at the same time, it can be deadly n cutting.

2009-10-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy.

So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when, in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

(taken from some blog)

2009-10-02T14:20:00.003+08:00

questioning myself over every move i make now.

whywhywhy. why are things like that.

it always happens.
tho we are both sick of it.
why?
but we just cant let each other go.
no matter what.

whisper that everything is all right, its okay over n over again.

2009-09-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

we quarrel, have cold war,

but in the end,

we always make up,

cos we know we cant give each other up so easily.

never to give me/you/us up.

2009-09-25T18:05:00.000+08:00

okay, shall exercise more often from now on.
hmm. at least twice a week!
skinny=me (my new aim!)
go away fats to make space for more FOODIE. wahahaha

short attention span happening again.
so bored at home that i end up munching on snacks n sleeping again. like a pig.
haha:X

2009-09-24T13:06:00.000+08:00

promises.
make a commitment to undertake or give

2009-09-22T00:19:00.001+08:00

good n bad day all in one.

went out with dearest hs today.

watched Aliens in the attic..

shopped for his bdae present..

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dinnered at din tai fung! XLBS~~~~

its like soooo long since i eat it.

been craving for it since dontknow when..(just ask renee)

and BANG!

the bad thing came.

ended up forgetting to bring his present home from din tai fung! FML:(((((((

only realised that till the i almost reached yew tee!

but, luckily i called back and they were a bunch of honest ppl!

ohmygod, i swore i would hug them if i saw them just now!!!!

otherwise, i would have to burn another huge hole in my pocket, just for the present again! :(

which i would rather combine both amt to get a much better present for him.

LOSER MUCH ME! HAI. 

2009-09-21T11:51:00.001+08:00

went to work in  the it fair the prev week.

hmm. prettty tough i would say.

fierce competition amongst ourselves

not to mention, low basic pay and lousy food.

PLUS, leg is damnnnn tired from like 12h of standing!

anyway,

met joyce over there too.

and some weird customers,

which are really weird and i dont want to mention/meet them again:X

2009-09-07T20:33:00.001+08:00

(life's like a circus)

made sandwich for me today.

awww. thanks alot dear!

:))))

cant wait for the next time. hahah

didnt do anything much today,

jsut slacked arnd. bt still, i enjoy spending time with him!

tml... training!

wish me luck! ^-^(V)

2009-09-04T23:00:00.002+08:00

went out with baby today.

caught dance-flick,overall the show was okay:)

saw nat and nigel at cine too!

hehe. its been a long time seen i saw them!

happy day spent today!

yippee... borrowed a book and cant wait to read it tml! :>

2009-09-03T23:35:00.004+08:00

didnt feel well so cant travel all the way to town to catch a movie.

but had a great day tho:)

SPAGETTI MAKING DAY!!!

SHOPPING IN SUPERMARKET FOR INGREDIENTS!

SNUGGLING UP FOR TWILIGHT!

relaxing and enjoying tho.

first spagetti made by babee.

yummie-licious! :)

2009-09-01T18:19:00.000+08:00

bored srsly.
shall post on what i feel aft teachers day.
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we have all moved on in our lives.
some of us go to poly whereas others jc.
life moves on.
but why, r/s btw ppl cant move on with life?
i see others cherishing their sec friends after entering new sch and stuff.
putting away all their past and unhappiness..
and end up being friends and even good friends.
why cant we all do that?
returned to sec sch only to find out:
-ppl drifting further apart
-ppl being awkward with each other.
-ppl not being able to be themselves.
-ppl still in their own grps.. treating all the rest like strangers.
its all so weird..

2009-09-01T18:10:00.004+08:00

think i gt really short attention span 

and i get super bored easily.

EFF. 

7 weeks of hols. what to do man! 

FML.

i wished for so many things so many things

happy teachers day!

2009-09-01T02:01:00.000+08:00

met up with ppl i havent met for ages. (like jiaying, yutze, elaine, minyan(not that long, but still, i miss her))
had an enjoyable time reminiscing!

loads of pictures taken! :)
after thatt when to interview with baby.
and met up with renee afterwards. hehe

talked abt loads of things and really have a good chat.
cheap thrills and many more. but still, its FUNNN

lovelove many many!

sorry for everything said.

SELLINGGGGG..

2009-08-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

(credit to trooops! )

Am selling this shoe from TROOPS (: (now sold out!)

It's highly fashionable and matches with almost any outfit!

-Made of suede material

-4 adjustable straps

-slight heel

-super comfy!!!!

-fits size 6-7

PLUS, IT'S BRAND NEW!

SELLING IT AT 25 BUCKS! Sold at 28 bucks at TROOOPS.

MIGHT SELL IT CHEAPER IF YOU CONFIRM WITH ME SOONER (:

2009-08-27T15:16:00.001+08:00

Finally received my new buys J (L)(L)

Still waiting for my pair of shoes though.

Hmm. Wanted to buy one more set of clothes but sad cuz they were under pending. **inserts sad face**

Nvm cos im SO looking forward to the trip to JB( i think) tgt with nat this time!!! Hopes my parents allow, & i think it will prolly be a high chanceJ

Triple yays!

On a side note, i really hope baby will be able to pass his econs!!!! Plsplsplsplsplspls**prays hard**

Whined alot alr, but i still am going to contd. I don't want him to retake:((((((((((((((((((((((

Hmm. I have just started on the first few chapters on econs. FML.

Hope i can finish going thru all by tml.. and i really want to go JUJU ONG bdae.

Btbtbt, i gt work. Someone tell me how :((((((

PLANS FOR THE NEAR FUTURE.

2009-08-23T22:43:00.001+08:00

Cant wait for exams to be over!!!!

So many things i have in mind to do!!!!!!!

Get a job during my holidays(since its so long)
SHOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Go on a short trip overseas. HEHEHEH. Omg. My first, Hahahaha
THINK OF STHG QUICK FOR MY BABY'S BIRTHDAY! (got to make it up for him, since i didn't celebrate with him last yr ): )
MUST catch up with ALL MY BELOVED FRIENDS & RENEE J
SAVE UP!!! SINCE BIRTHDAYS ARE NEARINGGGGG. Ohnooo.....
SLEEPOVER SOON AGAIN? BABEEES? Or me sleepover at others house? That will be fun!! hmmm..

Slacking here instead of studying for my pacc :X

Most prolly fail, hahah! At least i tried!

AND i studied for the WHOLE afternoon! ;)

(don't ask me how much tho)

2009-08-21T18:25:00.001+08:00

hopes everything's well soon.
i just dont get it anymore.

2009-07-26T19:27:00.002+08:00

stupidd blogger..

anyway. i havent been feeling well these few days
so i guess i shall be going home after my pacc tml.

haha. worst thing is that im feeling unwell no one bothers to even ask me how im feeling for the past few days.
perhaps everyone just assumed im sensitive or sthg. LOLL..
guess they all assumed i'll be fine the next day.
then when my parents finally find out im ill,
they just scold me like wth.
aye, like its my fault for wanting to fall sick.
whateverxzxz.
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2009-07-22T22:06:00.002+08:00

love is hard to come by.

having to come across it, grasp it and dont lose it.

never thought that this would come this far. all the quarrels that we had, we solved it all together. you loving me all this moment, i can really feel it. i love every single bit abt you, even yr flaws(which i shall not expose:X) or me always crying becos of the quarrels we had. cos thats part of love too. thank you for always giving in when i get angry. this is a difficult period for us both, with sch and stuff, but i really hope we can go on and on. our feelings true to each other as always, from the day that we realised our feelings for each other.

2009-07-19T18:03:00.002+08:00

watched Harry potter and the half-blood prince ytd.
after much anticipation(:

watched it on sat even though the cinemas were almost full house.
heheh.
the show was a lil disappointment though cos the climax were sort of short?
hahaha. and the ending was abrupt though like its supposed to be some sort like that.
overall, i enjoyed it though.

gahh, my hair look really ugly now with the stupiiiddd highlights on.
oh noo.. what can i do to make them disappear???
should i just go dye it black?? hmmm.....

2009-07-16T18:50:00.002+08:00

stupid results that i have gotten back so far.
none of them really made me happy.
MOB BLOODY FAILED.( this one which is one of the papers i had confidence with though and i FAILED ) really sad. cause i think that it had alot of credits for this ca.

next, gt back my STATS. okay, most of our class didnt really do well. and i gt c+. fine, was sort of expecting myself to fail,bt okay..fine.

ECONS AND ACCT i merely passed by a lil which is damn bad. fuck, accounts the one which i really went to practise and went to understand all.. i dont even know why i fucking screw up the paper. really disappointing. i thought i would get at least a B? cos i really had confidence in it.

econs i had confidence too! i was pretty sure i grasp the concept.now it seems that whatever i seem to place my confidence in are all turning all against me)=

really scared that i will have to repeat my modules or even if i dont, it would affect my gpa.
tsk. business admin is really a highly competitive course, look at the no of ppl studying it.
walao eh, regret choosing this course. and my class ppl did really well too, making me feel damn lousy. haiiii.

how to break this news to my parents?! they are the kind of parents who will look at results and will scold me off like shit. and the look of disappointment on their faces really affect me greatly. aye.

i must come up with a plan soon. and change myself before the sem test. otherwise, i will really go die :(

2009-07-11T23:05:00.004+08:00

have been wanting to post abt michael jackson's death since the day i knew abt it.
but it kept slipping out of my mind.
anw, i admit im not really a fan of his before his death,
and i will be disgusted at his appearance and stuff.
but ever since his death,
The highlights of his contributions to the world changed my attitude towards him.

here's the video of one of his famous hit: billie jean
my personal fav of his performance for this song!
(with moonwalk, and everything plus,before his skin changed colour)

though im not his hardcore kindof fan but still,
R.I.P MICHAEL JACKSON, the KING OF POP!

makes me realise how short life can be sometimes;
and start treasuring everything that you care for in the world before its too late.

2009-07-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

hmmm.
missing alot of ppl now.
him which i dont get to see today, perhaps tml and on thurs.
nee which i cant count for how long since we last met up.
nat, whom i just saw ytd but is still missing her ttm.
hwei sze, whom i didnt see her for ages too.
and mum, who is having cold war with me now. -.-
haha.

im feeling so random now. tsktsk.
bad sign to my emo-neess.

2009-07-03T00:03:00.003+08:00

exam this whole week.
stressed ttc.
think i probably wont do well for this sem)=
with all the procastination and the slacking.
its not really surprising i guess.
hope things are fine now.cos i am really putting all the unhappinessbehind me
i dont know how im suppose to react towards her. i feel inferior.
STATS paper tml.
got a feeling i will flunk it again:x
probability, pls dont come out):

2009-06-28T15:26:00.002+08:00

studying for MOB now.
really hate this module ttm!
so many things to memorise and its eff-ing dry. )))=
argghs.

A relationship is not about 'you' and 'me',
its about 'we' and 'us'.

2009-06-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

studying at starbuckks alone now.
so boringg.
oh dear, anyone just come down and acc me pls))=
comtemplating whether to call him anot.
hmm.

2009-06-25T00:46:00.001+08:00

spent my day studying with nat and nigel.
thanks to them my day isnt that boring(=

cant pretend that i dont mind.

2009-06-18T15:39:00.003+08:00

will be leaving for malaysia tml.

not much aniticipation really.

and i cant even see him before i go.

its been coming to a week.

oh wells. guess i just got to accept it.

maybe he doesnt know how much i wanted to meet him.

2009-06-16T23:05:00.002+08:00

i feel pathetic now.
hate this feeling to the core. argghs.
tml.. what will it be like.
great, cant wait to see -.-

2009-06-16T01:37:00.002+08:00

the feeling is swallowing me whole now.

wish that you are here by my side when things goes wrong,

a word of comfort or even silence is good enough for me,

cos at least i can feel yr presence.

perhaps you are not really good in this.

but, hope is always not too much to ask for. i guess?

sorry for crashing that lil concern you had for me.

wasnt on purpose. and i regretted it.

at least it was concern.

sorry. i really am.

fri is coming..

will i even get to see you?

my heart is reaching for you.

what abt you?

the layer of protection surrounds me now.

curious yet always afraid to be hurt by your unknowing reply.

2009-06-14T15:14:00.002+08:00

i can almost see it

that dream i'm dreaming but

there's a voice inside my head sayin,

you'll never reach it,

Every step i'm taking,

every move i make feels

lost with no direction

my faith is shaking but i

gotta keep trying

gotta keep my head held high.

so true.

2009-06-13T19:18:00.005+08:00

i am so worried.

but i dont know whats going on.

i cant help but feel that i just another stranger.

how i feel?

yet another tinge of pain that will be unspoken.

2009-06-10T22:40:00.004+08:00

simplicity.

a nice day spent with my baby(=

was supposed to go for my facial though today

but it was freaking crowded.

so, we decided to go swimming.

hahah. yes, SWIMMING.

went to cck complex to buy my new one-piece suit(=

and went to bt batok to swim.

dinnered at bt timahh hawker centre was love!!

stingray, hokkien mee... ahhhs.

simply mouth-watering.(i know you are jealous, nat! hehe)

its good to just put aside everything and relax for the day.

thanks, my dear.

and i really need to go suntanning soon.

go away, ugly tan lines! needa gt a new bikini..haha!

2009-06-02T19:49:00.002+08:00

real bored today in school))=

guess it must be the weeks of weariness building within me.

couldnt even get my spirits up.

the weeks of getting all wrong for my pacc.

no confidence. and i really dont feel like trying anymore.

he seems so stressed up.

and im so worried that he is just putting on a mask not to make me worry.

i wish i could help him)))=

2009-05-31T15:57:00.003+08:00

so many things in hand.

so many worries in hand.

stay strong!everyone incl me(=

to baby:

all the stress going on in you nowadays..

i understand.

your course. your classmates.

fuck them all, alright.

im here. to share all your troubles with you.

just endure for 3 years. baby.

3 years fly past real fast.

and in btw im sure you will find friends(=

i love you.

to my beloved cousin:

you aare going to do well even without him!

stay strong and be happy(=

i miss your craziness and everything.

evernything that makes me giggle along hard with you, babe!

no matter what, i will be there with you!

good luck for your o levels too!

i love you.

2009-05-23T14:47:00.001+08:00

first year.

220508 has been a special day,

because i found you.

220509 marks our first year of love,

i hope there wont be just 09, but 10 , 11 and more.

went to watch angels and demons with baby.

afterwhich, we dinnered at jacks place.

its a great day(=

and i love you.

2009-05-20T00:28:00.002+08:00

i know you are trying.

so am i.

hope things are really getting better btw us.

shall keep my fingers crossed till then.

its going to be one yr.. in a 2 days time.

and i havent get the present.

hmm. shall go get it soon.

2009-05-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

its yet another round of disappointment.

everything seems to be crashing down this moment..

im really losing my mind.

can someone help me to put everything right again?

dont raise your hopes high

cause its going to crash everytime.

just like your heart plummeting all the way down.

the feeling...not everyone can feels it.

but when you really know how it feels, you will know how disappointing it is.

perhaps nonchalance is the key to everything.

but will it solve everything? or will i be just running away?

like how i detest that.

all this while,you seem unbothered by whats going on.

2009-05-15T21:46:00.003+08:00

i am really not what you guys think i am.
and i didnt know i am actually being thought of it this way.

till i accidentally saw..

i wish i never knew. that i was wrong and my eyes played tricks on me.

it hurts.

furthermore, i thought..

i want to get away from school,

far far away.

please pick me up and take me away...

p.s. i really miss my cute and lovely hwei sze))):

heart void of feelings

2009-05-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

something is wrong with me.

i want to be pampered, have someone to care for me, love me.

my heart is aching terribly and its feeling utterly empty))):

2009-05-10T22:19:00.004+08:00

totally lost her cool today.

everything she held tightly broke loose..

the feeling 0f vulnerability spells weakness.

the voice within tells her that something's changed. but, shes not going to believe it.

not yet. at least.

2009-05-06T17:41:00.003+08:00

NOTHING doesnt seem to go right for me.

NOTHING. NOT a single thing in my life now.

AND I CANT DO ANYTHING TO CHANGE IT.

is there anyone who is there for me to lend me their shoulder and listen to what i say!!!!!! omg. i am so freakingggg frustrated and screwed up.

2009-05-05T22:55:00.001+08:00

yahs. she did it again. great.

and she makes ppl around her sad.

shut her emotions up!!!

2009-05-01T23:31:00.003+08:00

went to royal hotel to celebrate my grandfather's birthday. wasnt really enthusiatic about going... but baby wenxin and baby ashley were there! :D miss baby wenxin alot(= she's such an angel! anyone who isnt in a good mood will be brighten up by her smile. so sweet and infectious:D and she is so cute. hahaa. her mum acted in pain when she pinched her and she went to pat her and place her head on the spot to comfort her. ohhhs...shes really CUTE(((((= LOVE HER. HEHE. i wanna my daughter to be like her too. hahaha

caught horsemen and it was pretty gory. haha. but overall its pretty cool:D

and yes, shes recovering..

2009-04-26T19:03:00.002+08:00

can they make everything alright? like what it used to be?
she wants him to be by her side, be near her where he is always within her sight.
cause to her, that is the greatest blessing on earth.
but, is it possible? he's busy and they are not in the same school.

that is her greatest worry and insecurity.

she wants this love story to last as long as possible.

but now, it seems to be drifting away from her.

2009-04-25T00:55:00.003+08:00

everything at the dance floor was it for real or were you just faking it?
its like a cinderella story, everything ended after the dance.
back to how we were for the past days.
like how cinderella returned back to her old self again.

let me into your heart and let me know your feelings, would you?
i tried really hard to walk in.
but its blocked.

a day filled with full with emotions.

2009-04-23T20:48:00.001+08:00

dang. face and neck was infected with rash): wth.
i look fugly and fat. shall exercise real soon...

2009-04-21T22:36:00.003+08:00

dont really like today cause i had to climb up and down that freaking big and huge business school carrying my laptop and lecture notes and a super heavy bag up and down the building. i really dont like today))): was late for almost every class...but seriously i dont really bother. the lecturers are mostly boringgg. its worst worst than teachers in kranji. sucks): fell asleep in econs. lol. went to popular to buy two textbooks which costly and heavy. yupps. so went down the hill again this time carrying these two extra books. almost dropped everything to the ground.
cant wait for tml mannn. -.- im still trying getting to get used to everything here....trying to fit in):

cant describe the feeling, all my worries just cant seem to ease.. i didnt want to let you know cause i know you were irritated. at me.

2009-04-19T01:18:00.002+08:00

beautiful imperfections.

no one is perfect in this world.. but when you found someone and you love and bear with the imperfections in the person, thats what makes the person perfect(=

2009-04-17T00:02:00.003+08:00

last day of orientation.

umm. had flag day today at chinatown. went alone to meet up with my classmates and we were in groups or pairs. i went with ashley and kang yi came to join us later. kindof boring as we had to keep asking for money and im like half time slacking. hahaha. cam-whored together:D after which everything ended we went back to school and counted the amount we collected. then it was PARTYEEEE!(for all the freshies at sch) dear nattie came to join me and ashley..but the music was damn sucky at first. went to have a quick bite and went back in again. haa. but this time was awesome cause there was like performances like beat boxing and hip hop dances! so cool...im so determined to join that(:

missed out on real partying part but anyway, i hope the zouk party will be equally or even more fun:D so looking forward to then.

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2009-04-14T18:28:00.002+08:00

friendships that lasts forever♥
day 2.

its the second day of the orientation. i woke up at 6.30 today..but felt sick. so i went back to sleep. hahah. went to school with beloved nat today, hahaha. met her for breakfast at 9 today at burger king and went to school together. miss her so much. so sad that we cant be in the same course. life just seems different without bitching and gossiping together))))): how i wish we can be in the same course, same class)): boos. reached school at around 11 plus and met up with my class, i was so enthu at first alright!! but, during games suddenly everything inside me just died down. i just want to get over with everything quickly. ahhhhs. i miss gossiping and bitching around with my lovelies. hahahahhaa.

perhaps i should just skip tml?? life sucks): life just sucks.